Not a bad person just made bad decisions got clouded vision from this whiskey im sipping from this weed im smoking no I am not joking this life is holding me hostage but it keeps on unfolding, don't know where I'm going dont know what happens next but I must confess I keep on hoping I can turn it around before my name has a bad sound to go with it. I just hope im not too late, to stop the self hate that I made. Lies, deceit,  heartbreak and anger that you can't see, all of it is bottled within me. A maze of shadows I'm facing every day. These are the wounds that will never go away, I cant even pray for them to be gone so I write one more song and it's on. Bad decisions made me what I am today. Gotta take a stand, no longer be a slave to my emotions. My future's not written, but at least I'm free to try. Gonna make amends for all my bad decisions and it starts today. I got nothing left, nowhere else to turn. My life has become one giant burn, but I got everything to learn. Finding truth in this world, has been hard to find. But freedom lies within my own state of mind. I raise my head up high and face another day. Cause deep down inside I know things will be ok. Gonna take control of my life and make something of it. No more bad decisions - time to rewrite my script Bad decisions made me what I am today. Gotta take a stand, no longer be a slave to my emotions. My future's not written, but at least I'm free to try. Gonna make amends for all my bad decisions and it starts today. It's so vexing so distressing my demons wont leave me alone, I just wanna go home. I dont like the place I'm in I feel like my boat is sinking so now I'm drowning and I can't swim. I'm running out of time and it's not fine, where do I draw the line? I'm not as important as I thought, it's the demons that I have fought. I have no idea where to go from here, everyone is insincere, what I actually fear is that everyone cares, bc I don't want them to be there or anywhere. I feel like my life ain't mine, but I did the rhyme now I gotta do the time, feels like being alive is the worst crime. People tell me they care but I know its fake. I feel like nothing is at stake when I say what I wanna take. You say you care but I dont believe it, take my heart and retrieve it from the devil. Let me revel in the fact that it's turned black, it's in peices from all the attacks. I feel like I should be on my own, feels like it's been blown out of proportion, I live in distortion. It seems like your love is fake like you think me being alive is a mistake. I feel emotionally paralyzed because my brain has been sterilized. In the shadows of my mind, darkness takes hold, With voices of the worst kind A rage burning deep, a story yet untold, I'm haunted by the choices that I've made, A path of destruction, a price to be paid. I let temptation guide me, down a treacherous road, Now I'm left with scars, a heavy, crushing load, The anger boils within, a storm ready to break, I'm trapped in this cycle, a prisoner of my mistakes.But I won't let this anger consume my soul, I'll rise from the ashes, take back control, I'll learn from the pain, let it make me strong, Turn these bad decisions into a battle song. These bad decisions, they fuel my rage, A fire within, burning on this stage, I'm drowning in regret, consumed by the pain, Lost in this darkness, where nothing remains. I'll face the consequences, embrace the fight, Channeling my anger into a guiding light, From the depths of despair, I'll find my way, Turning these bad decisions into strength, come what may.