I’m walking back and forth again Trying to find my peace Screaming at myself again Like I ain’t all I need Pissed I let myself down By giving a piece of me Away without reserving The best for me Because when the sun goes down And I’m back here on my knees Praying that my god will come And rescue me please come And save me from this scene I don’t want to go But I feel that I need to leave Every time I find a reason to stay I lose another piece of me It’s like a shadow is all I have All my hopes and dreams Somehow lost in yours It’s like you are all I need But that’s the fucking issue I give you the best parts of me and all you give me is a shadow, like who is that suppose to be? I blame you for things that shouldn’t determine my peace You try and you try But I still say it’s not good enough for me You see me slipping away Every time things don’t go my way But here you are still keeping the peace. I swear I don’t want to go But I feel I have to leave I want the best for you And I know that isn’t me You say you want to stay But your actions are screaming To just set you free You can’t love me the way I’m begging you to love me at this point why even try Nine years and still counting You know why I try I keep it 100 even when I wanna try to sugar coat some shit because I’m not trying to see your eyes when I say that shit I regret it instantly but I mean that shit Because why you can’t just leave You say you want me and your here But when I wake up in the morning your in your phone not over here I’m having conversations with myself Because you remove yourself Even when I’m offering you help You always play yourself you doubt me Every idea I throw you make it seem like You already know how it go And that shit just rubs me the wrong way Because even when I try and lay You don’t know how to play And every chance we have You never take I don’t know how many more chancing I can give before I break I just want someone that knows me Really take the time to hold me Not just my body but my soul My mind everything I know Lead me and a way where I don’t have to show you Love me in a way that I already know you. I’m just scared that I’m creating scars for myself Holding on to something that isn’t good for health. I swear I don’t want to go But I know I have to leave I want the best for you And I know that isn’t me I want the best for you And I know that isn’t me I don’t want to go But I know I need to leave