gotta answer for my decisions never thought I'd be the vision of worry stress and fear so over crying these tears if you ask if I'm okay I'll Crack a smile always say I'm alright, maintaining truth is days be draining my energy my optimism take a minute and listen cuz this the most honest I'll get put it on this track just let my heart bleed on the beat what I accomplish daily is a feat and I know I'm not the only one I guess more work, less fun got medical concerns now been had em but it's worse now thinking I gotta take care of me cuz these two girls need mommy is it meant for me to be alone don't know why I even have a phone cuz that thing barely even rings and I'm tired of chasing a ring pawned the last one out of spite and I knew it wasn't right I was so angry at how it ended even sadder at who I befriended to get over that one grass wasn't greener, now that's done there be little blessings for sure and I'm still looking for a cure to how I feel on a daily basis tired of all these shifting faces I just want a friend that's consistent doesn't stay for just assistance got a lot of those surrounding me I think I really know the key I just gotta say no more often cuz how does a friendship be costing more than my own maintenance and Im with the loyalty and faithfulness but reciprocity is definitely a thing maybe that's why the phone only rings when you need something from me and I fall every time for the boo hoo story today, be prepared to hear no cuz that's not how a friendship go