you don't know what it's like day to day, I'm trying to get out but they want me to stay, sippin lean let my life pass away just saw my other family drive away, here for five days let em take, my life is gon floating in the lake, last time I had fun it was fake, caught in some shit the bold fade, I'm telling you about my life cause niggas thing they going through the same shit as me trying run away from life talking bout they really can't get rid of me, I said I'm not doing nothing good here everybody really fucking sick of me, and when I try to do good everybody egnore me like a remedy, listen I'm outside with my gang doing a hole bunch of fucking gang shit, devil tried to get me fucked his ass up now he really ain't saying shit, finally away don't know where to go I'm lost in transit, smoking weed til the lights go out cause I really want to vanish, I been dreaming bout this moment ever since I was alive, so much stress pushing down on feel like internally dying, wishing for death and for life at the same fucking time, and when it don't happen I telling myself who the fuck I rely on, like I am a demon don't mess with my niggas cause nigga be feening, fuck wit me yo ass Is gonna be bleeding you ever had to start from the beginning, losing everything becoming so empty, if you were in my place you would've been livid I tried to save him but I couldn't I did it and when it all happened I left when I shouldn't, I'm telling you bout my life cause niggas thing that there going though the same shit as me, tried to run away from life, talking bout they really can't get rid of me, I said I'm not doing nothing good here everybody really fucking sick of me and when I try to do good everybody egnore me like a remedy, I don't know what I should do now I ain't felling my self but I'm feeling some way it's kinda a mix between if ima stay, the devil really took my life away, he said I would get everything that I wanted but bitch ass nigga lied strait to my face, now if I see him in one of my dreams ima make sure to say a nigga a disgrace, I've been crying to long I can't mention, I've been grinding so long lot of tension, I don't say much I don't like the attention, thinking a lot I don't be in feelings, last time a nigga said something to me he ended up like all of his bitches, even tho I am alive nigga, I am not living