The Victim's Prayer So much shit in my brain Got me feeling insane Can barely remember my name It's like there's a deadly storm And the drops are acid rain! The calamity You're mad at me So many years wasted on you Spent half locked in a room Kept believing your lies That sad same old tune You stalked and swallowed me Fucked up and followed me And when you were raging Took it all out on me Still, it's like I couldn't escape it Change, stop or erase it It was deadly from the first date, yeah How you pretended you could relate And it almost seemed like fate But it was just a game--checkmate! I held so much agony, so much pain Embarked on the deadly game Wore more than my heart on my sleeve How you made me believe! And then made me bleed Wore more like a whole damn shirt Glowing in all my madness and in all my hurt To be healthy again It just seems like too much work! So I sit here fuming Stuck in my own head there's no room in Trying so hard just to clue in No longer so blind, a fool and A lost little girl, a broken child Trying to escape, as I stood in denial Looking for a phone to 911 But there's no ring tone or dial You resented the untamed me, all wild Tried to train me, tame me, all the while Chain me, restrain me, and tried to contain, shame and blame me Until finally I lost hope, Ended us, gone up in smoke I murdered our love Sent it down below as I drifted above Now I wave so long, as I bury you Instead of the plan to marry you Goodbye my dark knight Who turned into a beast Our love is gone It has been released and is now deceased.