stuck in this bottom pit with these lame never want to change I work hard for what's mine no need to hustle drugs anymore I'm in retail man been like that for 10 years or more quit when I had kids cause I wanted to be There for them ever min every second I get with the is a blessing God gave me them as a gift they are children of christ my daughter change my mind of think of how I felt about women I use to use them an destroy relationship by seeking about but for 14 year marriage I ain't greatest husband I cheated an rob my Own family I felt such a shamed that I did that to my family my wife stuck around even when I was down an out off drugs an crazy mind I had Sueasidle thought I want to die at the time bur in end I was being selfish an think about my self instead of who was in front my kids was my life u was stress out so idk what to do couldn't keep a job I was broke off them pill was messed I was lot in Jesus came save me clean me up change my life I love him forgiven an repentance was key still stress but with lord I have faith and believe he will make it right