Man its really been a long year Struggling with writers block just wondering if I belong here Im in a lot of pain You can fill it in the song here Been catching plenty heat like the Tampa Bay Buccaneers Or the Arizona Cardinals It becomes harder to slay fear Its like my petals are in the wrong gear So climbing uphill every day sucks & Lately it's all clear That death is inevitable and it's scary to know it's all near I know it's my fault dear wish I can hit alt clear and delete my history But I can't so coping Mean sitting in the bar and ordering a tall beer I Look to this wall mirror And i hate my fucking reflection With anxiety on my brain thats wrapped up with depression Is it time for a new profession Bottled up with aggression Due to no signs of progression It's hard for me to keep stepping tords building a newer setting For me and all the people i keep letting down And that i keep in a constant fucking repression I just feel like it's time to make a new impression On this universe that we live in How do we know when we fucking made it From other peoples expressions When people tell me I'm dope is that when i know im prepping Or is it filling this dark hole in my soul And living move towards a new direction and escaping all of this plague And infection Don't get me wrong I love everything I have theres some spots in my life that I definitely take back if I had a chance but I don't think that's what lifes about It's more Seeing that you fucked up And then learning to take a different route I thought I had it figured out but being young there's still so much more to learn if I've learned anything ya have to take a chance even when it's not your turn To advance sometimes you have to let a homey burn And for the riches You'll have to put fun on hold Work till youre tired And pass up on getting turnt It may suck now but one day you'll look back and realize those moves are the reasons why you earned Everything you got now do you self a favor to see the favor returned fuck I don't know why am so sad don't know where this all came from growing up is hard as fuck but I'm proud of where Id came from. If you would've asked me years in advance I would've told you I'd never be in the same dump but those very same slumps made me who I am today so there's not one thing that I would change up tell you people who feel the same as me focus on you and getting your change up And no we came up with problems but thats not an accuse to give the game up Our stories are novels of how we struggled to keep our brains tough Yo battle me I know you feel me so put your fucking hands up