Yeah, look They say nothing lasts forever, love always fades away I try to hide the pain, so I guess I'm the one to blame I'm in the dark fallin', drownin', callin' your name I still hear your voice, I still see your face But I, held on to you, but you were killin' me slow Two things, love and compassion, things that we'd never show We all just run from the truth and all the things that we know And still I'm lookin' for you, but I just hope that you grow, fuck I'm not as okay as I pretend to be Runnin' from the past and I can't see what lies ahead of me I gave up on everyone, I gave up on everything I know there's a heaven, I just don't think it was meant for me If you knew me you would judge me for all these mistakes So like the rest of us I carry this smile on my face And act like everything's okay as I try not to break My smile is like the love you gave all along, it was fake Been so neglected, I don't even know my worth no more Sinners like us don't find forgiveness in a church no more Meds, they don't work no more, my head doesn't work no more Sometimes I'd rather die 'cause that wouldn't hurt no more But some nights I wanna call you and swallow my pride 'Cause some nights I just feel empty and hollow inside Why do we hold on to the people that promise us lies? Why do we kill ourselves to live if all of us die? I'm slowly breakin' down, it's hard to fake my smile I learned the things that help us breathe can also make us drown I just can't take it now I just can't take it now My demons talk to me, these angels never make a sound Sometimes I look inside the mirror and stare at myself Hate who I am, I have this pro'lem comparin' myself Sometimes we love someone who turns into somebody else I got so lost in you, forgot how to care for myself We fight addictions, we hate each other, we're all the same We dig for love, bury the past and end up in the grave, yeah But who's to blame? I guess we all change We hurt the ones we love because of our pain, fuck