Dear mother, it's been years since I last saw you I was so young when I was taken away, don't even know what I'll do You were deep into those drugs, I was just a child The scars you left on me are still raw and wild You keep asking for forgiveness, but you don't know the pain The memories of your abuse, it's like a permanent stain I want to move on and heal, but can't without closure I pray to find the strength to forgive, but my heart's not so sure Growing up in foster care, I was filled with anger and fear Wishing you would be there, but you were never near Sometimes I wonder if you even cared or loved me But the more I think, the more it's hard to see I know you've been clean for some years now But memories of the past, they still make me frown Don't think it's easy to forget what you did And all those nights when all I did was hid You keep asking for forgiveness, but you don't know the pain The memories of your abuse, it's like a permanent stain I want to move on and heal, but can't without closure I pray to find the strength to forgive, but my heart's not so sure I hope one day we can find peace and move on That I can forgive you for all the pain for so long But it's hard to let go of all the hurt To forgive but not forget, it's like sand and dirt For a while I thought I deserved it, didn't think I was worth it toking everyday until my hope had gone away I see a Ray of light so I know it's time to fight I need to do right You keep asking for forgiveness, but you don't know the pain The memories of your abuse, it's like a permanent stain I want to move on and heal, but can't without closure I pray to find the strength to forgive, but my heart's not so sure.