just as my confidence goes up my shitty family brings it down and all I wanna do is cry went from a smile to a frown acts like he wears a fucking crown I understand I'm outta shape I'm not too proud but he had to bring it up and open his fucking mouth now when I look at him just makes me wanna shout and all I wanna do is just let it all out I'm stuck in depression oh what do I do now take the pain away start smoking some loud get judged even more saying my heads in the clouds making me feel shitty always filling me with doubt I'm crying in the inside but on the outside I'm won't make a sound thought you were my family thinkin you'd be by my side said you'd be a good uncle I guess you fucking lied you make me feel insecure and I just wanna hide making fun of me and always making me cry my feelings are aching and my body is shaking my way of taking away the pain is waking and baking my heart is racing wanting to die needing a saving I don't know must be mistaking confused need an explanation I'm so fuckin I'll god! need my medication parents keep saying shits gonna fuck up my education got nothing to do with that all about dedication maybe I'd put it in if it weren't for all this devastation people look at me and think I got it easy breezy lemon squeezy just cause my parents got money don't mean shit sweetie I may look tough and needy when clearly deep down I'm weak I may talk big but sometimes it's hard to speak life's so shitty feel like I'll never peak I'll feel like I'm bouta break im already broke try to rob me there's nothin to take I stare a shake Im really awake I remember what my parents used to say hey we love you give me a break for fuck sakes my life's full of mistakes and im one of them it only takes one thing to hurt you I'm so lost and confused I don't know what to do you keep saying your loyal but your fake it's makes me ache now you know why I wake every morning baked just so we're clear this isn't a warning it's more like I'm forming a warming but all around my head it keeps storming thoughts keep swarming I'm just informing that it effects how I'm performing it's like I'm transforming into something crazy beast that's roaring really deep down it's me crying cause I'm sad what a surprise is pouring outside people keep asking me to do shit why my hands are tied around my neck squeeze until I reach my death bed until my very last breath that I get bitch you ask me what's wrong? you can tell I'm more than upset I tear and I sweat god I wish to be dead I'm stuck in this debt my face goes red I scream and. said honest though what's even the point I'm still stuck in the joint I'm so used to getting disappointed I'm unwanted taunted parents almost aborted me just forfeit me you see they was already fucked up always used to snort the C and smoke the weed blaze the kush always got pushy dizzy thinkin everyone's pussies don't matter who you are everyone has bullies only difference was my family wasn't rookies to them it was simple as milk and cookies