some people say when I die don't cry but that's not me when I pass away I want people to grief I want people to remember me as the funny guy then I always wanted to make lyrics and talk about problems life is all about reflection but when I reflect on myself by the person at rock bottom I try not to let anxiety make my own personality but it's very hard when you're always paranoid then you think your shadows are coming after you I've been running away from the truth wondering why everybody hates me but I always make it worse I always isolate myself and I wonder why everyone hates me this is what I like to call depression I'm always stressing people say you're too young to be stressed but I got to address that no somebody thinks what's happening in Our Lives I don't know where to go I feel trapped in my own mind isolated in my own insanity who's in faith in humanity I'm always tired always Restless I was so drained I can never sleep it's I'm in a dark room looking at the roof wonder when why I can't sleep singing myself within alibi I don't know why I like this maybe I'm in a insomniac or maybe I'm ju to st the Maniac but all I know is the only thing keeping me alive is my music if I didn't have that probably wouldn't be here today today trauma build your character drama breaks it down a smile is a screaming frown trauma builds character that means I've been pretty built up you can say that again the months go by a fast but the face feels so slow I just want to stop the clock so I could just drop and sleep all my dreams are nightmares and I'm always scared of what's going to happen next wondering what's going to happen in the geopolitical world some people say when I die don't cry but that's not me when I pass away I want people to grief