bound to be lost refusing to give up whatever the cost losing my sanity losing my grip I'll never grow up cause grownups are priks fail forward don't question this reasons I've about forgotten them self enfatuated ignorance I'll never quit searching for something cause I need a fix building a tolerance loosing my balance until I can find it leaving a mess I'm out of my mind and out of my wits mother of my children had enough called it quits kicked me out now im missing my kids everyday lessons remain consumed to do better for them I need to provide for myself so I can truly love them bouncing back to the future DeLorean sent stepping alone think the dentist took my wisdom put aside without a choice these thoughts are a message now in my head again what an awful place switch on auto pilot play pretend voice neglected positive state of mind without choice remeber be kind you can't rewind lifes not like blockbuster tapes negative controll mental case smoking dope loose perspective cause for concern I anticipate your judgemental take is this a joke learning several times over the hard wayi guess my mind had seen better days you could say cause for concern if you don't progress at a reasonable pace late nights fade long days take a lot to concentrate gather resources throughout what hurts living just to stay a float said that you would but you definitely don't building the strongest emotions consumed by inner worth I'll speak about mine and issues that hurt over time multiply moments learning how management motivates curve so long as it remains focused ones memory faith and truthful grace done in a flash with evil ways I'll mind advising the right take or punishment since birth trust was hard to recondition face the pain you've been given rather jump willingly then be pushed while I'm not focused during failure watering me was a difficult thing to accomplish if you had not noticed seems lately living with regrets has been the worst I vice to grip to grab my way stay collecred or something with this cost why did come from nothing operating towards something never accepted uselessness overtaking opportunities as they present them self throw everything away restart oh well tougher thinking above your level how dare I decide to degrade and disregard respect for what ever worked in the past new route change forever fail forward never sit I the same place that's wasted time take something learn from it eveeything is a chance to grow better why does everybody point my way with a judgeful steam while I speak the truth with a breeze a fresh air inhale execute stare in the sky all day wasting time has been difficult to love one of mine stay committed to the process it will come in due time hard to clarify this vision I've been driven madness murder mayhem moving through Time created downfall can't work can't do see I was in a full Sprint before you learned how to walk I'm not lying still divided it seems all talk lately livings been a difficult task just to exist how difficult it's been to shed the skin of my past I've created so many problems for myself could I express the mess of memories haunting me as a chance to fix this route what a problem is step left instead of right giving up before you start seems better try complaining getting handouts why would you waste your time learning on this your own sound like some made up fictional route but I had to shut my mouth piss in my boots Avalanche getting sick of flu time slip in wasted vision not explaining without a lunch for school why you call me a joke and get the fool when he least expects it why are you my enemy I still lie around stealing thinking metaphorically spinning with the fan blades above me in a full of lies no promise kept but you said forever was forever why did we have two kids together that's just unjust being a part-time dad has my heart severed like I left half with you and them I don't got a piece for me it's amazing that I'll play pretend everyday I wake up without a reason to live but I still breathe hoping that my frequency can vibrate back to this DeLorean back to the future positive devotion for a new route s*** but I guess I slept that full of regret knowing I wasted time when I hit the crossroad could have went right but I went left guess it was my choice run up and check who run up and check talking this game but with wisdom we step deadly is sin to ourselves in faith we collect resurrect hopefully reincarnation no death constantly frustrated tug of war debating that can forth aren't doing anything positive fighting like pigeons locked in a tiny cage is it me that's a b**** swallow my pride divide differences simple thing just a choice take your head out of the news watch your voice say this stuff to yourself in your head shut the f****** before you screw it all up as you usually do because your life center what don't want to make depositive choice when you know right from wrong you should listen and guess is too late Oh well good riddance close the casket 12 feet under watch the clock simple slumber during this daily dreaming nightly screaming everything has no meaning dopamine depleted what's a sequel it doesn't matter and my decent my life shadows every wrong decision there and after over and over teeter-totter moments I ain't got any good memories and yes I've been going through the longest storm ever Why doesn't this tornado take me away pause button trying to say nobody's listening screaming like I'm dreaming nobody can hear it not even me translucent yes I am defeated and only you could see through me If only we could have met in the middle sacrifice 50/50 oh well I hope you miss me probably not this isn't I'm gonna have a good ending it's not a movie between works presents I could have made the right decisions and yes I knew right from wrong but I was living dancing with the devil lost in his own vision not mine but I adopted it and guess I am dealing with consequences Well close the curtain nobody's listening and it hurts but nobody's listening as I'm screaming and crying out and notice the hole that I Dug from myself