Not a lot of people understand depression most people wake up and see it as a blessing instead of feeling pain it’s just easier to end it. It’s not about who you love or who is there for you? It’s not about who you trust or what they could do. It’s not about popping drugs until your face is blue. It’s not about me. It was never about you. I just need to show the world a sad, fucking truth. Suicide prevention isn’t suicide proof. The walls are caving in emotions through the roof. Sorry not sorry this is what I need to do. It’s easy not to say so no one has a clue when its all said and done theres no more feeling pain no more constant worries no more constant shame. This house is not a home so it doesn’t feel the same . Mom Ill always love you Dad youre on my grave Depression comes in so many different ways You can try to hide it but youll show it in your face Itll knock you down and make you feel alone people don’t understand depression is no joke deathly to the brain so I fill my lungs with smoke Hoping ill forget before I write a note This is not a cry for help, this is hown to cope wanna have dreams I wanna have hope don’t want go up on that chair to tie this rope I wanna get better and so I don’t feel so alone I wanna get past this and learn how to love I’d rather not be so low and smile from above no more looking down only headed up Gotta to do something I really need a shove I know that I’m important I know that I’m enough And when I’m feeling down I just really need a hug Finding ways through this is what really makes you makes you tough starting today no more sad stuff No more overthinking no abusing drugs You can find me happy dancing in the club