hope I on my way I'm coming don't don't lose faith in me I know you've been waiting I know you've been praying for my soul hope hope 30 years you've been dragging your feet telling me I'm the reason we're stagnant 30 years you've been claiming your honest and promising progress well wheres it at I don't want you to feel like a failure I know this hurts but I gave you your chance to deliver now its my turn don't get me wrong (nate you've had a great run) but it's time to (give the people something different) so without further ado I'd like to introduce my my album(my album)my album(my album) my album (my album) my album. HOPE what's my definition of success (of success) listening to what your heart says (heart says) standing up for what you know is (is) right while everybody else is tucking their tail between their legs (ok) what's my definition of success creating something no one else can being brave enough to dream big grinding when your told to just quit giving more when you got nothing left its a person that'll take a chance on something they were told could never happen its a person that can see the bright side through the dark times when there ain't one its when someone who ain't ever had nothing ain't afraid to walk away from more profit cause they'd rather do something that they really love to take the pay cut its a person who would never waiver or change who they are just to try and gain some credibility so they can feel accepted by a stranger its believing in yourself wen no one else does its amazing what a little bit of faith can do if you don't even believing you why would you think or expect anybody else that's around you to I done did things that I regret I done said things I can't take back was a lost soul at a crossroad who had no hope but I changed that I spent years of my life holding on to things I never should of kept full of hatred years of my life carrying a lot of baggage that I should walked away from years of my life wishing I was someone different looking for some validation years of my life tryna fill a void pretending I was in- they get it growing pains and necessary evil difficult to go through? yes but beneficial some would say having a mental breakdown is a negative thing which on one hand I agree with but the other hand it was the push I needed to get help and start the healing process see if I'd have never hit rock bottom would I be the person that I am today I don't believe so I'm a prime example of what happens when you choose to not accept defeat and face your demons took me 30 years to realize that if want to get the opportunity to be the greatest version of yourself sometimes you gotta be someone your not to here the voice of reason having kids will really make you take a step back and look in the mirror at least for me that's what it did I wake up everyday pick my son up hold him my arms and let him know he's loved (loved) standing by the window questioning if dad is ever going to show up isn't something he's gon have worry about don't get twisted that wasn't a shot mama I forgive you I just don't want him to grow up thinking that he'll never be enough 30 years of running 30 years of searching 30 years of hurting 30 of pain 30 years of fearful 30 years of anger 30 years of empty 30 years of shame 30 years of broken 30 years of anguish 30 years of hopeless 30 years of (hey) 30 years of never 30 years of maybe 30 years of later 30 years of fake 30 year hollow 30 years sorrow 30 years of darkness 30 years of (nate) 30 years of baggage 30 years of sadness 30 years of stagnant 30 years chain's 30 years of anxious 30 years of suffering 30 years of torment 30 years of (wait) 30 years of bitter 30 years of lonely 30 years of pushing everyone away (you'll never evolve) I know I change (we are not enough) we are not the same (you don't have the heart) you don't have strength (you don't have the will) you don't have the faith ( you'll never be loved)(you'll never be safe) (might as well give) not running away (you don't have the guts) your the one afraid (I'm the one incharge) I'm taking the-(no!) I'm taking the. reins