Different track from anything else I've done. In no way do I condone or promote suicide. Simply just tried to promote awareness to mental illness and suicide. I just chose to do so in the 1st person. I didn't spend any time mixing the track. I don't expect it to be "Featured", I just hope that you feel it and see the different aspects of life that would suffer without you here. I do suffer from depression and anxiety and am not ashamed to say that. I truly appreciate all of those who have taken the time to read this and listen to this song. Respect. #ShagSavage #GoodbyeForever #SavageGoodbye #TrendSetterZ #IVHundado #Louisianimal #DellBound #YSrecords So I guess that this is goodbye, forever./ No coming back from where I'm going. Never/ I'm sorry that I couldn't keep things, to-gether/ Never meant to let anyone down, remember/ 1st thing I want to say, to those who cared about me, is I promise I did not feel a single ounce of pain / And I wish there was a way for me to make sure you all feel the same, please forgive me/ This was not to hurt you, please let me explain/ It's no secret to the ones closest there was a problem with my brain/ And It became to hard for me to deal with and maintain/ Some days I really felt like I had just been hit by a train and others where I'd feel great, flying high like just like a plane/ I tried so many different things, to for just 2 days, wake up feeling the same/ Couldn't help but question if i was literally going insane/ Ever since a kid never fit, never felt we were the same/ And I was always taught and raised not to be the link too weak to hold the chain/ The weight started to get more heavy and I had to change to compensate/ Losing people that I loved was really way too much to take, damn/ Started effecting me so much, so to get by I started faking/ For several years now, at least 8, just to get me out the house it took some of you to come physically make me/ Forcing you into that I am so sorry and can't forgive myself for that mistake/ I can't help but think, despite what I know that you would say, is that I made this here decision several years too late/ And by now you would be over it together/ You cried so enough so it's whatever/ Goodbye forever/ I'd say it kills me that I've made my friends and family feel like shit this way/ But "kills" would mean that I'm still here with tears pouring out my eye/ I made this song and then I was gone, this is my goodbye. I think about my friends, crew better keep settin trendz/ Let em enjoy the show til curtains close and that bitch ends/ I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW THIS WAS NOT YOUR FAULT WHATSOEVER/ I TRIED SO HARD TO MOVE ON AND FIGHT THE PRESSURE/ I COULD BARELY HOLD ON, PRAYED TO GOD ID GET BETTER/ IF I MADE YOU CRY DRY YOUR EYE PLEASE I BEG YA/ IM SORRY THAT I WASNT STRONG ENOUGH TO KEEP IT TOGETHER. SO PLEASE HEAR MY VOICE WHEN I TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU/ I LOVE YOU, AND THIS IS GOODBYE, FOREVER I WANT YOU TO KNOW THIS WAS NOT YOUR FAULT WHATSOEVER/ I KNOW THAT YOU CARED, TRIED TO HELP I WOULDNT LETCHA/ WANTED YOU TO HEAR MY VOICE, DIDNT WANT TO LEAVE A LETTER/ I LOVE YOU, AND GOODBYE, FOREVER I think about my kids and hope they can forgive/ They never knew the day we spent out on the lake would be the last kiss they'd ever get/ Most important ones I'd ever give/ They thought that it was weird,/ "Dang dad it's not like you're gonna never see us again. This is embar-rassin"/ Sorry yall makin you feel embarrassed is last thing that I wanted to happen/ Just love you guys so much, you can't even imagine/ ALRIGHT NEW GAME! GRAYSON AND CARTER, YALL THE CAPTAINS!/ Called up Josh that night to just say hey, didn't really know what to say/ Asked how he was doin and what they planned for Christmas break/ I could have asked for help right then!/ Always been there for me, more than ma kin!/ Now its done! Decision made! Was this choice the one, I had to make!?/ Or if I only asked for help would I be saved????/ How many have I let down because this blade?/ Will anyone come to my grave? Talk about the good Ole days? Or stay home because it rained and no one has time to take standing in bad weather/ Don't matter now, answer whichever/ Goodbye, Forever