DEPRESSION really hit me last night an I make my raps to help I use music as a coping mechanism Fuck living an fuck dying I wanna love but I wanna die I wanna say hey an not go away but I just wanna say I love you an goodbye I wanna feel better but All I feel is pain stand hear ever day under a cloud of rain I sit up every night thinking to myself y caint I swam to get better it let it all flow away I got these thoughts telling me this an telling me that I wanna tell to fucking leave an never come back but I’ve grown an seam to just let me stay they don’t even pay for the rent an that’s damn near 18 years late I’ve grown to realize it only gets worse every day. Are you happy why not you got ppl here Actually they like to play pretend How do you know I can see it in there face So play the same game an make it urs Fuck that I ain’t got time for all that I’d rather live or die an not deal wit all that caint you see I’ve got my own shit Turn yo life around an become happy fuck happy I’m used to being sad an upset or even depressed y change if I’m used to the way I am y change to something I’m not or sum I don’t even like y do I care what other ppl like y change to sum that I’m not even like y change change ain’t even right How do I just got from if I was happy to not even being happy how do I just be me an not know if I’m being the way somebody else wants me to be how do I know Man just let that shit go FUCK THAT What wrong wit letting go EVERYTHING