stuck in a spell been throwing change in a never ending well wishing time would heal my wounds resealed scars vanish into thin air look in the mirror hoping to see the old me before drugs broken love and no 0dreams these crows feet but it's just wishful thinking but it still fucks with my head how time flies when your part of the living dead time wasted sitting in a room dieing slow and with type of people you wish you didn't know lungs full of smoke man the type of shit I've seen situations serene locked away cause of the shame family don't fuck with ya because refuse to get clean hole time swearing nobody loves you so you lay in that pit of self pit and soak and let yourself go my life was a hellhold convinced this was all I had left more or less throwing the flag in and could careless l Iost control let the wheel go and for years drilled holes in my boat till it capsized and I hit the rock bottom man the regret you carry after your eyes reopen and see how many lives you tore apart or hearts youve broken and all the respect people lost because you were empty on the way to the deep end hard to change when your branded with this name and a number property of the state like a child with no mother