look look, all I felt was abandoned over tha years. look my dad said he ain't care look look. he said he ain't love me and I fr thought he was speaking facts. he verbally abused me but that shii was whack. he talked shit all day and night wouldn't let me get rest. all I wanted was some rest but I wanted to get something off my chest. then it started hitting me in my head. left me fucked up mentally in physically. I wanna forgive him but can't forgive him for the shii he did. left me traumatized not knowing what to do to live. had no one to guide me to go left or right look. look the guy was toxic not leaving me to know what to do look yea. look bro started hitting me like I was nothing look. didn't know whether or not I was gonna take my life from the shii he did. He left me abandoned and went to Vegas. left wit my grandma and didn't know what to do after that. got in trouble day after day not knowing what do do without a dad. came back one day to try to share some memories but I felt like he couldn't get it through his head what he done.