waking up blessed with out you by my side you make it hard. to wanna stay alive Day n Night I struggle seeing life from parents family eyes . they say I pry for.you . I'm divily guided I am not hiding I'm riding or dying for those who do it say it . each an every day actions. of pushing me away. reaching out first it hurts . Madd ticked off I put my self first. go threw the worst when your around or far outta my vision demons think they wining all this sinning spinning bottle after bottle. weeblewobble waking up blessed with out you by my side i feel like I'm burning alive pain in my lower back shadows hide playing with my mind struggle so Dr. says take these medications deny how they make me feel am I going crazy or insane all these emotions rain tears wonce you get insianty you have no more fears all this narcissistic heartless abuse mental emotional psycal threw my years waking up blessed with out you by my side stress is eating me alive losing hair itchy like drug addicted with his or her life feeling like same thing happens day by day sun up moon rises life be unfair I am so cold hearted I no longer feel I'm numb to my thoughts an third eyes .more aware been lonely felt unwanted Don't care .