I have walked through hell & back in my life time the stuggle is real  foreal is how i should pit it... i just cant quiet some says i be on my own all  alone overthinking sad all up in my feelings alil mad smiling pretending im happy partially cuz i don't understand my life i wna give up man I've had enough where is MY HELPING HAND MAN....   I am not who i USED TO BE yall keep asking me  who i am?? who am i???  this very day i don't know the answer or  how to explain no examples nothing man.....  Im struggling man & when  i look behind me -  beside me - infront of me  = theres nobudy in my sight am i trippin how could it be theres 500 million people in this world an its just me myself and I.. as i gather my  strength an catch my breath misery is at its best its defeting me I need somebody to believe in me trll then at this very moment right now type shit i got my hand  up high wita stick white flag tied to it im calling quiets but listen closely bitch  my journey it aint ended yet  I still got miles an miles to go   slowly going with the flow just a few more   turns to go as  I turn to go i hope that  wherever i end up theres change better days or I can finally take my rain jacket off no more rain is wat im waiting for shit...  the end.