Yo,Do you ever just look around at everything and wonder what the fuck it's all for? All the pain, the suffering & agony. Have you ever dug yourself out of one grave just to find yourself being suffocated in another? All of this pain just to die? Where the fuck is God at, huh? yo, yo I sit up in my room at night And think of when I was a kid At 13 trapping on the block something my mother would forbid But I just didn't give a fuck and life would take me hit by hit at 13 i was so depressed sat in my room and slit my wrists I kept a secret no one knew I found out monsters do exist no one could hear my silent screams and i would drown behind my tears got on my knees head down and prayed i guess he never heard my prayers they've gone unanswered day by day they've gone unanswered year by year whole life I've had an appetite I guess I never could suffice and only when i fed my demons would they let me sleep at night I'd sing to them some lullabyes thought it would muffle out their screams they say they want the best for me while selling me some broken dreams when I was just a little jit I wanted to grow up s o fast And now i find while looking back i always took the darkest path i throw up prayers sit silently i wonder what all this shit means and if he never hears my silence can he even hear my screams i sit hear broken barely breathing wondering when I'll find the meaning Do these drugs they keep me high I'm feeling fucking dead inside but beauty lies in every struggle through the chaos find I'm humbled as I sit sift through the rubble feel defeated never crumbled drugs they keep me so disgruntled pray one day I won't be troubled keep my head up and always hustle i am the lightning and the thunder through the trauma though i suffered beasts inside will be discovered everyday I will recover This is my rebirth motherfucker