Addicted to you, you're my favorite drug I buy your lies, you're my favorite plug Sometimes at night I will stare up above And wish under a star that I wasn't so dumb Why does it even matter, shit I didn't matter I built up my hope just for it to get shattered I'm always alone with the thoughts that I gather I flip through my thoughts it's a terrible pattern As if flipping through 'em will lead me to answers I try to move forward, but keep going backwards I hide all my pain behind smiles and laughter Where no one knows that I'm a wild disaster, Brandi feels like I'm lost too were alde-a-d now lead me I'm all on my own left me I'm all on my own he was deaf too I'm falling down Always alone I wish someone could see me I lay in my bed staring up at the ceiling Talking to myself until I'm overthinking I'm home all alone no one knows that I'm weeping I swear my whole life is so fucking deceiving And I stand for broke with the checks I'm receiving My money can't buy the family I'm needing My money can't heal the agony I'm feeling I need someone to love to me, someone to hug me Someone to be there when my mind gets ugly I swear they really think my life is stunning Bro I come home to absolutely nothing I'm just a lonely guy loaded with money Nobody told me my days won't be sunny I'm bleeding on people who didn't cut me So when they leave me, they leave 'cause they bloody I have issues with women, I'm so co-depended I can't love myself, so I need her to give it And that's always where my self-worth is depicted And that's why I date women so narcissistic My mind is a mess and it's always conflicted And lately it's been hard to make a decision And it pains me that I finally admit it I've been suicidal and trying not to end it, fuck her boyfriend is in a dick world shoutout sik world