With the loss of my mother, now I'm without direction I Became a ghost looking to others for affection Out taking drugs, looking for a connection Shunned God, now the bottles' my only blessing Spare the rod, Lotta trouble in my section They talk, I nod but I walk With a dreg complexion Then beg I'd come to them for confession But I feel less than, a contradiction This addiction got me wrestling feeling restless Especially without this bottle to caress me Never met me got the bag say less The drugs treat me highly I guess Lately under a lot stress They try to talk I'll resist Like talking to press Please don't believe in me Like I don't exist Just list me the rest I can rest When you feel like that nothing left The weight so heavy on your chest you cant take another breath Yeah, just leave me layin dont know if I believed him Hard seeing I'm worth saving On that day, I stopped praying On that day lost the will to live I hopeing you forgive I gave everything there is , Is everything pretend knowing ima sin Tryna fucking to blend I just wanna use, but I'm the one abused Next you see me I'm in a suit, closed casket Cause Ran up no mask, shit It Ran up, I got blasted type casted for crime I work through the night time To give you the day And I pray for sunshine On nights soaked with rain. To stay in my right mind To dealing with lames can't see the lights lime I'm inhaling the pain reeling from the cocaine kneeling to maintain faith concealing the hate quick turn,about face to late to many mistakes feelings misplaced in bad playmates healing from scars ache, Stay awake, you stay away In God remade, still a day way from a retake, a nod to many misplays a fraud put up on display judged for poor taste and being tugged down the wrong way.