Suicide Shame

Gotta wake up from the nightmares I return to the clouds, searching for cleaner atmosphere.. How the hell did I get here? How the hell am I so low, low low? Can you push me out, I’ve gotta get back To my old self.. Nothings good for me here I cannot seem to endure This pain inside my head Someone come for me, before I find myself dead. This hell clouds the good will, I find it to be cruel I can’t escape the pain I can’t breathe I can’t see I’m living in vain. No clear end in sight As I sit for the last time, Of all my crimes This is the one where I die. I thought maybe I could find myself in this mess with no help, no meds no friends..yeah I hella fell. Seems I tried, that’s what they say when they can’t sleep at night, when they think of me they shed no tears, but cry inside. That’s okay, it wasn’t suicide.