When I was conceived Mom and pops was dealing with their own endeavors Drugs and prostitution was their only solution My parents get popped buy the cops couldn't Afford to pay there bell or resitution My dad goes to the penitentiary For a couple of years my mom goes to jail While she's shedding her tears And gets one year what a resolution Me and my brother get split up into the system Feeling that cold hearted fear because I missed them Pops gets out early for good behavior pick me up at a Foster home while I had misguided behavior My dad finally introduced me to my older brother where I learned about video games and Knuckling up With stuff socks Smoke a little bit of weed when I was 7 couldn't stop laughing we both got caught my brother ass wipe couple of years later dad bet my ass for misbehaving Set me to school better and bruised The school yard teacher sent me to the office while I was crying and Nauseous With a busted lip Went right back into the system scared of s*** 6 months later I finally meet my mom Reunited with my 2 younger brothers The 1st day we smothered each other By playing with toys nothing but love As I'm getting older I'm getting Boulder fighting my brothers I was a Unstable problem For my mother In-and-out of mental hospitals my mind was smothered I remember my oldest brother on the Highland Park stairs Chase Having no clue that he was packing that heat For suicide as I stared Talking out the situation that wasn't fair I couldn't believe I got him down Those stairs Is what he said with a glare Further down-the-line my dad calls aint heard from him in 5 years He was locked backup for DUi's He said don't cry Dry You're eyes and don't be shy You gotta be a man I was 14 years old I was young man Anyways further down the future My high school teacher bought me a leather jacket We go downstairs to the parking lot Where I got to hit her spot While my brain was on drugs tied in a knot And I had a couple of relationships it wasn't my fault it did not last Maybe it was because of the pass In my mind of sight nothing really Lasted So I got inked up While I'm getting cocaine blasted When I really needed nourishment and love Instead I kicked it with scrubs Now I'm 20 years old I met a girl I thought she was saving my life When it was me saving her soul She had 3 Baggages to claim So I thought to myself I could play this game Up-and-down like a rector scale Hitting that 7.0 I was quick to bell Hopping to the next woman with that Chanel smell And Fingernails in that short run nothing ever went well I went right back to her to get out of these rags And get my mind out of the sewer I stayed Engaged in her As I'm blasting Conceiveing a new born child He was handsome it was more than I could ever ask for At this time I'm 24 Got me a job and an apartment so my kid could play on a clean floor Cheating left and right Felt like I kept diving in some pussy from the highbord I got caught slipping My wife beat my a** I could have put hands but I wouldn't be a man So I stood against the door As she swings and scratches my face some more Years later trust issues be the problem But we're working it out problem Solver There's more s*** to say but if I did I would need to get my revolver Don't myself out underneath the flowers But my mind's too strong I gotta think the higher power