Hey sis can we talk? Been thinking about life and ending it as it's a waste for me, honestly. Whatever I do it's just turns out to be bad for me, I never know who to trust or not to, I been having tears and I can't control my emotions so when I know it was over, I broke I guess that's what I get though huh? Trusting people only leads to a bad lifestyle, trying to play the cruel act to be the bigger person out of us yet I can't even control my own self, now I'm a mess and ur mind is thrown everywhere, as even you don't wish to talk to me yet u force yourself to, I push u away just to say or think it will be ok after this, yet in the end we can never get to trusting each other again it feels like my life is closing in every puzzle piece I make of it, a blade has been drawn and blood just drips, just not my throat, just my forearm to relieve my pain yet it won't go away, I feel pain to try to get comfortable with it once more, yet it just won't stop coming, I don't know what to do, I'm lost in life and I have lost the only god damn person I truly had feelings of careing ness, my mom cares less about me, just wants to use me, dad he just wants dhs off of him, and I... In the middle guy, I fight the tears that slowly go down my eyes, yet I don't know what to do anymore, school isn't it for me, nobody to talk to really when everyone left for other schools and split up, your dealing with enough people and damages as it is from family and I had to just go add on another problem to your list of life that even you somehow seem to handle, your stronger then me, yet I would still try to compete with what's out of my league, I love you sis.... Pls don't leave like everyone else. Pls don't leave me.