when you need me you want me to be there but you aint been never there when i needed you starting to feel like our relationship is single sided. Never had asked for shit never game me shit i thought the world of you loved you more than i love my mother and now that truth hurt thought you would have been different by now and would've treated me different cause god knows i tried defending you verbal assaulted my grandma for you now that shut don't even feel worth it As I'm writing this I'm sad angry disappointed having thoughts about taking my life while cry and sit in the darkness listening to X and I crossed out every one in my life and i thing i should cross you out of my life because all of the pain I've felt the past two night hard to sleep with tears dripping in my eyes and these fears start creeping up that's when i see dark figures and don't know what to think ive never been this hurt in my life starting to doubt every decision that I've made the type of hurt is unparralel i don't even know how to feel as I'm writing this my heart start to heal as i remember the good times we had I'm glad of the memories I will always carry them in my heart but its sad to say I'm disappointed so many times i defended your honor and i was honored to now its seems pointless cause you proving them right it feels like you gave up you don't even care about me no more this shit starts to feel like a goddam war I don't know which side I'm on or even know if I'm wrong even then I will see in another life even then I don't think it will be different