I wonder if I’ll ever sit at the table to eat people don’t know if I eat because they never see me eat well I’m sorry it’s getting hard to eat I’m so depressed it takes control over me to where I don’t wanna eat I’m too depressed to get up from my seat my depression got the best of me and meal’s don’t work beds just make me worse they don’t make me sleep I don’t get up when I hear my alarm go off I just want to sleep put my alarm on repeat no I don’t wanna die I just want free from these ED thoughts that overflow my brain which eventually causes pain people say it causes me to lose myself to the point I go insane well let me remind you I have some mental health issues and I’m struggling to eat so please don’t set me free to the world to meet please take a seat and let me speak my stomach feels weak I don’t want to eat I feel sick to my stomach it feels like someone punching me in my gut I don’t like the way I look I feel thin one day and then thick the next tell me is there something wrong with my body or is it just me I plead myself to eat while I’m wondering if I need to eat it’s getting hard to eat it’s hard when depression decides to eat you watch out cause it will turn to defeat you don’t let depression beat you it will fucking eat you I wish I could eat like a normal person but you see if you don’t already know I suffer from an eating disorder So please don’t panic when I meet you I’m sorry I turned to meet you I really wish I did not have an eating disorder it’s really fucked up my life, it’s like someone took a knife and cut my stomach open it hurts so bad I’m sorry but it’s hard to eat if I ever have a chance to meet you I would say fuck off but you don’t want to leave but I’m sorry you got to go I can’t live with you any longer you’re ruining my life it’s getting hard to breathe not eating or drinking water I am dying I don’t even know how do I survive if I’m dying inside tell me do you hear what I hear or is it just me please set me free from this fucking ED it’s getting hard to eat I’m too depressed to get up Out of bed and take a seat so I can eat my depression got the best of me you see I don’t want to eat I’m sorry but I think it’s time for me to take control I need to get rid of my ED I hate it cause I love and hate you but I gotta let you go so I am saying goodbye to you today I hope to recover someday I pray today