Anxiety be not the case, just illusions by any case distractions Constant disembodyment, Detached from my thoughts, feelings and body (depersonalization). How the fuck do i wake up from being want I'm to a reality that i don't even fit in at all It got me thinking am not living right Or is my potentials peak fruitless wishes This constant day dreams drains be rains clouding my sunshine Be thinking i need a savior but who could be saved when i can't even begin to know what i want to be saved from Society be means of trends but am trending just that it's seen by me Scream but why border they be enjoying your pain not learning from it They be sewing what they saw (repeating it) Reality be the saddessed means of pain Coz u be the one causing it Be wanting a fam but is that only to close my loneliness How selfish is that Might be coz i have no role models I'm trying to cover up that void knowing i can't coz i hate myself Avoiding certain bad moments be like being childish (peekaboo) with myself coz they can't hurt me if i can't see them but would it be worth a good laugh those one's looking back at it & stare them in the eyes regardless if they are red (crying) & realise that that's the real me What makes a baby fall asleep? Hmm Cause of tiredness no! They are taught to reserve their energy Now you learnt, use what you have been taught to preserve your energy for what comes 2morrow coz u need it Don't just sleep not knowing why your preserving (living for) Can't get enough relief Challenges court me in a relentless rush Trauma be solved by sleep The real me can not be dead inside coz They be falling off like head less chickens Like they be bleeding off blood Why do you come to my house telling me you don't give a fuck You ain't part of the cause Why you chose to see me in the clouds then Clouds be the one forming from the entities falling from mom's Mom's babies Be the one's luminating luminate illuminate What the fuck am i saying Luminate my mind Duplicate my mind Sky rocket Levitate But why levitation means of success Coughing I'm don't know Fuck life Be selfish