how could you do this shit why would you take my kid you took away my life but the pain inside it lives and it grows cuz it feeds cuz it knows that I need to be evil to see through the smoke so it won't let me eat let me sleep let me sulk let me grieve around people that need me the most. the fear that my son musta had in his eyes as he peered at his peers while you took all there lives you cant be in hell I'm in hell and im alive. I'm alive im not gonna lie it's lookin like I gotta die in order to survive feelin what I feel I side then it's multiplied by every passing day I've cried till my eyes are dry really tried to revive just what little life if any light resides there. but I doubt it he woulda been six today six candle sticks lit today but instead of giving gifts away we gotta sit n pray but I never find the words to say tell me God wtf am I suppose to say where the fuck were you at that day how the fuck am I to keep the faith tell me face to face my god is this by your hand your grace where's the warm embrace . I lost my way.. like a soul wandering in space. tell me what's it gonna take to be free from hate. please god tell what's it take what's it gonna take to stray from a heart that aches for goodness sake aint debate I'm bout to break for me too late I can't be saved engrave faith depraved on the tombstone of my grave today..