man i want to believe want to just see maybe just feel a change is me maybe just feel i could i be less human more heavenly why does it sean like ive seen to much theire no the part of my heart touch that could never really be enough to clear me head I've seen some stuff im my dreams I'm in a bishops office im still making that lieing promise this week ill be far more cautious but demonsin me liven lawless its hard to escape indoctrination it takes some guts and termination to face an anceit intimidation where not afraid of fake damnation all of my faith tho i want to believe is gone is gone i prayer to god like it says in john it still feels just like con ill play my part ill be a pawn it won't be god that keeps me strong l2 all of the ways that i want to be gone are wrong all of my faith tho i want to believe is gone is gone all i can say is that im sorry mom every day i read i read the book of mormon i feel more played than an organ these thoughts go on rowing oarsmen im so sick of thinking mormon i need something to keep me saoring this thc got me ignoring these abhorring thoughts that keep restoring this song to you may be deploring i can't stand hear any longer my heads stuck thinking somber i sit still i try too ponder i cant freeze these thoughts that wonder me and the pope are the same you see both off us really just want to believe we could live more easily if we dint have to decive i hate to refelt on how i acted when in the faith i was more impacted id rather run strait into traffic the see my thoughts as photographic