I wake up every day I just want to be happy my brain doesn't cooperate honestly it's tragic living with depression ain't what most people think I try so fuckin hard but I'm still on the brink things can seem perfect but in my head nothing's working I think I need a surgeon to cut me open observe it please tell me what is wrong with me cuz I don't understand so used to hiding these problems behind drugs but now I'm a different man (chorus) stop drinking and dropping started diagnosing my problem now I know the issue and got no idea how to stop it it's the craziest thing cuz I can see it when it happens but I can't stop these feelings from racing in here and crashing and I can feel the collision all the way down in my stomach like I got punched in the gut and there ain't no running from it I could be up at the summit one thing happen I plummet they tell me to take my meds calm down if i do i wont feel nothing (chorus) now let me tell y'all something been like this my whole life been trying to hide it fight it naw this shit ain't right my methods of coping was just me drinking and smoking anything I could take i'd pop it and keep going but that was me not knowing I was making it worse if id stayed on that path I'd probably be in a hearse cuz I was feeling so cursed nothing ever went my way and nothing but negative thoughts were present in my brain laying down at night with no sleep coming my way my brain won't shut the fuck up it's been doing this shit all day do you know what it's like to have to fight with yourself trying to seem happy without liking yourself it could all be over just my blasting myself but I'm not going to give up in this fight I know I need help see with these problems at hand it's hard to talk to your friends you don't want someone to judge you and look at you like a lesser man so I need paper and pen then I opened up in these notes really it's all I can do to get these words out my throat I ain't looking for someone to feel sorry for me na I'm just trying to explain all this pain I got inside when you heard your whole life that you aint good enough when u was growing up it makes it hard to see that you was good enough when u was growing up fake it till you make it that's what everyone says to do so if the shoe fits I might as well wear it too see I'm the funny guy cracking jokes deflecting attention cuz I can't let nobody notice that my soul is missing so, if you feeling that I'm being distant you probably right people ask what's goin on I say nothing I'll be all right as I continue this fight it's an every day struggle I'm at war with myself when emotions start to bubble people telling me that my lyrics are dope thank you, but im staying humble im writing what I'm feeling words of advice for the people that struggle so they dont crumble you feel what I'm saying got ta keep your head up and if you need to talk just hit my line up please don't ever give up until your time's up things will get better it's just going to take time bruh. Tks for all who showed me love in the industry. Many positive words, and heart felt emotions. Mental health is real we need to get people help and open the eyes of those who think nothing about these issues.