all this shit makes me wanna give up but if i did nobodyd give a fuck this dream is a nightmare tryna wake up in the dark anfd there aint no light there right where i might stare lucid dreams aint life fair cold sweats askin for death i might die there death is illusion life of confusion wish what i know right now that i knew then before the usin abusing losin contisions a bruisin nothin do with the things that im doin i dont feel human i dont feel a solution brewin moving dodgin and duckin i dont feel nothin numb to the drugs im doin it doesnt make me feel any better about the way the that its been or that it wasnt this is the last song ill probably do and if its my last song it should be about you closure it ends tonight got my foot on the gas and it almost feels right the cries of lies despised by time inside the mind of mine is no suprise id die designed by crime to find the light the stars aligned define decline steep climb then i find one bullet left in the 9 ... pull the trigger then wish for death one step left 2 expect 3, 4 5 more breaths 6 seconds till im dead no more stress , just rest no blood left no more bleedin all bled white sheets all red wrists slit all dead no more fucked up thoughts in my fucked up head prolly somethin that i said they learned to share i heard you there thought u were just mine but youre mine and theirs nobody fuckin cares do a dime in a box yall forget i was there .... the blood drips the buzz hits feelin like fuck this how the fuck did i become this cant trust my fuckin family how the fuck could i trust friends? whos that ? and that ? guess i know where u been its crazy to play me the way that u play me cuz baby im crazy nobody could save me losin it daily chukas dont pay me the roof has been caving cuz u ruin betray me i should shoot u today u be pukin up daisies nothing to do its amazing fuckin with you not even if u paid me u decieve me then love me then hate me