(album- Hope gets marked with X) -song (Love triangle) Someone once told me that things happen for a reason. but Somehow I cant find a way to achieve Them. can One of You please explain to me ,... where the fuck is my freedom.?!.. guess it doenst really matter, cuz I love having God & Satan in my Threesome. *(pause) Listen.. Everyone knows I do this shit to myself why the fuck im dealing with people that can never be helped? why the hell I choose to Suffer and be ignored ? Give my energy to the people that would betray me and leave me poor.? *(pause) ā a Dammit I realize Im no saint at all but when I give Love, I always end up losing parts of my heart and , Lately I feel like Iv been cursed and things just keeps falling apart. *perplexed.. fuck Love it doesnt work for me Fuck You If You want To call me Your home ,and then leave me broken thinking id be better off alone. * (backround !!!l)(-pissed) (in pause) (You always fuck things up , thats why its so easy for You to just give up, Im not even sorry that You are stuck with Your consience and no luck) remember. You told me Your loved one brought mostly dark and then created new things ,just to break them apart? ,but then with me You just kept trowing darts in my heart? it just makes me wish there would have never been a start. . fuck , I feel sorry now that the world knows who You are . ... damn Did the light bulb just got turned on ? is that another thought ? hell yeah ..yup , its me here , being blind , naive , robbed& mr Odd im sorry, its My bad .. let me try and restart - or maybe You could just mind my lack of art cuz i should have introduced You with all my scars from the start. ,but im too busy playing this part ,where I pretend that Iv got no heart. *lil pause Im twisted ,damaged , and broken but still open, still hoping to give My voice for the unspoken. .but nope, ,again , that voice got my mind stolen.. ,You must be joking , leave me alone and fuck Off with all of Your moping,but the other half hates this part, for me trying to be coping. So what do You think He does next ? He goes on replaying You every Ex , (yup),Every step , (agha) ,every Test ,You ever failed,(hell yeah) and everytime I go to use mirror I cant hide the fact that I need to be ashamed. but in the end he always leaves me all alone and afraid, as im watching myself fading away. , tho honestly i should feel blessed as its new me who gets to be created . pause why are You trying so hard to show me the shit God in this world is displaying.? are You trying to help me realize that good and evil is just a game we - Humans, are playing.? Damn I want To run, someone give me a gun , i want to have fun , and see floors red in my blood. or a knife , so I can cut my wrists and leave this place You left me in aside. Im tired ,but are You able to hear? I scream in pain but it can only reveal my tears. Okay then ,just give me that rope cuz I cant cope.. but Nope I cant go ,... God has left missed calls on my phone, Then again satan tells me I need to go home . so I stay there all alone and just mope about Hope that can no longer be traced even trough a fucking microscope. bitch can You just leave me the fuck alone . ? I need to realize that I cant keep doing this shit anymore. i need to grow , be mature , but I cant even open My fucking door cuz im too poor To own the key to my soul. But then, once I truly gave up I was visited by faith she pleaded, to give up the pain ,give up the hate and gave me a chance to escape she smiled and said but its with a price to pay, Youv got a new chore , she forced me to give a promise,that it wont be ignored , You have a new Goal - save those who been disregarded , the broken hearted, show them the road and see them Glow.! pause (slowed down) (* devil in my ear whispering - How can You tho...? when instead of heart Youv got a black hole...when instead of home Youv got nowhere to go) ? hahah.