Jus how I feel…Bad moment for me… The only reason why I can’t kill my self is because I don’t wanna be stuck left in this realm then I really be trapped for life on earth without my flesh jus my soul longing to escape but never can’t because I decided to kill my self so I can’t do that to my self cuz I already hate bein here don’t wanna be trapped for life like a marriage I can’t even get out of I don’t want my life to be in misery I want to live a happy peaceful life I wanna sing in the night lookin up at the stars gazing on how beautiful life is n how wonderful my life is right now in peace n jus loving me n how happy iam with all around me but how can I wen i constantly have negative thoughts negative emotions negative feelings negative people always comin for me the energy of it never seems to go away even if I pray or meditate negative still comin for me some type of way like geez can I get break from all this negativity it’s frustrating stressing me completely out got me depressed emotionally drained n torn down feel like I need to bury my heart cuz it jus feels dead like it ain’t even tryin to pump no more for me I jus wanna go all the way deep in a forest n scream why God why have u forsaken me like why me why me wat do I do wat should I do wat do I do to make this life worth living for wat do I have to do to stay sane so I won’t blow up my brains I need assistance not help jus guide me on wat I should do next take this pain away take these thoughts away from me please I don’t want to feel dead I want to feel alive again I want to feel the kid me inside of my soul again I want to laugh n be happy n not fake it to make it I want to really feel happy n really be who iam n really feel like a free spirit soul full of happiness joy n excitement I don’t want to feel alone or be little or nothing I jus want to finally be me n don’t have to ever complain no more or worry about sayin how I feel to others anymore bout how I feel I jus want my life simple n good for me nothin more nothin less jus a beautiful life of complete bliss . -King Trè Shalom Jus How I Feel… Bad Moment Spoken Word