#spiritual #rookie #beginner #inspirational #science Kicked Into Getting Sick I'm trying to make a change I feel I'm loosing my mind in time. This felt so powerful and destructive you don't even know how corrupt iv been. The things I drew. I'm living in true hell being torn apart and soul ripped into a new meaning. I'm depleting very disgusting transformations to be destructing and destroy everything. I'm passionate for many things and am trustworthy. True sadness is a important master in transcendence. My Whole life misunderstood and used and tricked. Kicked into getting sick. **(Used and tricked. Kicked into getting sick.)** Tomorrow will be filled with sorrows from someone's time just borrowed. I think I might open another scar baby it's just to far. When I die keep my heart in a jar. I feel like I'm on Mars I see so many stars. Another star is waiting for you. It's about what you do.  I'll still try mighty hard to keep pushing far. When I die keep my heart in a jar. This hurts gone to far. I can't be in the stars. Theres to many scars. Is love gonna cave me in don't let it take me in for my whole world sinking. This is tinkering with my mind in time. Im not wanting to cry anymore, I'll die on the floor. Then ill be no more. Just sitting here thinking about drinking. But All I Do is sing, and hope love don't cave me in. How can i win. Gives your eyes a sting. Makes you cringe. Makes me wanna go on a binge. Is love gonna cave me in and rip my soul thin. Ill never give in. Even if don't win. Hope you remember these things. Who cares about the rings. There just material things. Ill still push hard, no matter how far. I can't take this again, love is caving me in. Ill still love you no matter what. Please don't give up. **(Used and tricked. Kicked into getting sick.)** I have disturbing emergencies ripping apart all of me. Everyone says I humiliate them. They don't understand how I am. I cant stand this plan. Keep going I'd rather be knowing. Take me away. Just for a day Open the portal. I want no more hurt and war. I'm so demolished but eveyones ignoring this. I can't take anymore of this. Im pissed. Everyone just was mean, and can't keep their heart green. I get told I lie, but I belong in the sky. I can't look inside, I just want to hide. I have to work to survive, but I can't even thrive. Everyone thinks money seems to bring happiness, but I think its just a mess. It's all a catch, we don't need this. You haven't done what I do, in these broken shoes. Just need to compromise, in each other's eyes. Stoped hiding, just try to guide your friends. **(Used and tricked. Kicked into getting sick.)** Maybe I need to get into bed. Get really high for days. Go into A daze. Look at naughty things to read or watch instead. still gotta make sure my mouth is fed. My favorite lipstick is the color red. Hope I don't end up dead if love caves me in. I won't win. I'll live in sin. I'll go on a binge. This makes my mind cringe. I can't give in. Ripped to thin. Im gonna collapse from within. My lifes a flash. Nothing but trash. I still cry. Wanna die. Yet just wanna stay. Please don't go away. Ill be above you in the stars up flying real far. Flying above you, ill always love you. No matter what you do. I will always be with you. **(Used and tricked. Kicked into getting sick.)**