whete does the time go, used to remember thinking its going to slow wanting to grow up faster cause my childhood wasnt that much fun thought when id grow up i could do more.. And i did and it was cool but i dont know why the people i thought i could call my friends hardly ever talked to me like they thought they was better than me.. cause they were blinded by pride trying to cover up who they really were on the inside they thought by bringing other people down they would feel aliive i guess they did what they had to do to survive they really dont know what its like to really be alive with the holy spirit inside wish they could feel that way soneday then they would realize what they were doing was wrong, sure we would all laugh and joke around but they were imature and i didnt have anyone else to hang out with so i made it work knowing i had more to offer they all acted like idiots honestly i had something bigger going on inside they couldnt ever understand or dedcribe when i shined they would run and hide then no longef be on my side they were never really down to ride they just wanted to pick on me and belittle me and downplay cause they wernt Happy with themselves they didnt know amy better and i feel sorry for them for what they did and the things they would say acted like little bratyy kids dont kniw why they couldnt just let me live even after everything that i tried to give they really didnt care they couldnt see havin a friend like me was rare this workd really just aint fare i wonder is there anybody out there is there a friend for me that can help me see maybe help restore my faith in loyalty where i can be me and we can love free without having to deal with jealousy just want some friends to share life with and have a good time and talk about important things that been on my mind like whats the approach to become successful.. Whats the goal, i gave them the best of my soul then they left me high and dry didnt want me no more.. They used and abused didnt care about my point of views they wanted me to loose while i was winnin.. guess they couldnt see because they kept on sinnin while i was searchin for the meaning. While i was busy dreaming they were busy sleeping.. i was awake i was the real one they were fake.. i aint given up on friendships its not too late theres gotta be someone out there that wants to make good memories just dint know anymore its hard too see everyone that ive loved has hurt me so its hard to trust its hard to open up its got me like what the fuck.. this is my luck guess im made to do something big alone need to stay in my zone hopefully one day i can have a place that i can call home.. Ive been hurting for real this shit cut me deep the people that hated on me im trying to look through it im trying to see a better me but its hard sonetimes just want some friends that i can share life with and have some good times im lonely im sad and depressed tired of people looking down on me and thinking less when i know i shouldnt care cause i know that ive truly been blessed Gods been cleaning up this mess i just need to confess when will i ever find some rest.. done been through the worst now its time to get to work cuse im tired of this hurt gonna rise above it live my life the way i want cause i love it.. hope someone can relate choose love instead of hate.