freestyle loosing pride

everyday I pray that I can be a better man everyday I pray that I can wake and have a strength to stand on my own too like I'm supposed to I'm hoping God see me through although I don't deserve it I know for sure lately I haven't been serving the almighty like I'm post I'm worried about the street s*** this ice age this ice game this mirage the devil's works this play play and who oh me a fee they need to pay me well I'm letting go although I probably owe my father a few million still asking for help and he still there for me he's resilient I hope you know I love him and I don't mean no harm not trying to use it I feel like my father is brilliant if I was half as smart as him if I worked half as hard as him there's no limit when I should be thanking God that he gave me a father made in his image to teach me how to be a man for Matthew I'm out here thinking about f***** up comments from imperfect humans wondering why they so ignorant but are they or is it I maybe it's both but I need to realize it's only me looking live or die for me I need to open my eyes and see the only one deserve and worship is overlooked on a daily until we hurting and need help then his name we say that's fake s*** that's funny s*** I need to remember this moment right now that I'm realizing who am I to call another man anything even if it's exactly what I'm doing I'm the one doing it not to another man it's at all high you know we got to do better you got to let pride go amen