father am sorry for all the times did wrong. am so sorry for all the things I done wrong. so please give me a heart that beats strong. cause I won't to live to see my kids be grown. Please forgive me father for all the things I did from being frustrated mad taken things out on my kids.from being stressed out trying to stay positive. it's so hard to do when they say you only got five years to live. from day to day it's been a blessing if I was to die today then who's going protect them I'm so worried and everyday that's what keep my wife stressing.