lately, been encountering adversity/ needa overcome it n not get beat. upon reflection, resilience was what strengthened me/ survived death's attempt to reap. going through all this has left scars so deep/ making attempts to heal has reopened them to seap. at times can no longer sleep/ my mind be always thinking constantly. trying to mediate, brings me to that exhausted degree/ tug of war, back n forth, fighting for the hosts vacancy. these days dunno whats destined to be/ each passing day leaving me behind feeling unworthy. more or less feeling lost, going to be costly/ n that price be taking my life just to feel peace. at times, so hollow feeling empty/ n at times feeling the pain is suppose to help me. who knows it could be a lie just to decieve/ or a truth too perplexed at the moment to conceive. truth be told havent moved on when close friends rip'd/ still struggling to let go when lil bro passed on so early. going through this shit got me feeling so weak/ defenses be down like a virus targeting the life force, squeezing until i cant breathe. whatever comes out of it, ya'll see/ if this was the ending, i hope i was remembered from friends n family.