Over night I lost everything and I feel the pain. The woman that I loved is gone and it’s diving me insane. Just like that two years clean and sober down the drain. Now I’m back to sticking needles in my veins. I don’t want to have to to high for the rest of my life but when the shits not in my system I really just rather die. I can’t believe that she just decided it was over. But I guess deep down I knew it to that there had been a change I just needed closer. I just know I can’t do it fucking sober. Just another sad story of a love that’s over. The hardest part about it I’m all alone in the mountains. Id give just about any thing just to be at home in east Atlanta. I know it can be rough but it’s home at least I wouldn’t be miserable and so fucking alone Cause I been sitting round playjng like I’m not down. The waters rising and Im terrified that I’m gone fucking drown. I can’t tell anyone what I’m really going through. Cause I’ve been keeping my Desmond secret for so long I feel like nothings gonna sooth. Cause there ain’t to many people that do the things that I ducking. do. We the the fucked up Lonely out side the circle few. I wish I could do better that I could be the man for you. That I could make it through the day without having to fucking use