I’m at a loss of words I don’t know what to say or what to think I’m over here over thinking on shit idk if it real or if it’s fake I feel numb and every bone and muscle hurts almost feel like I been here before this is deja vu yo you got me over here fuck up in my thoughts overthinking if I’m the one to ride with you or not if I’m really your ride or die or nahh Esto se senite como un pinch sueno esto That night pops up in my mind again me talking on the phone with you and everything going alright then it all switch up and I was in the line of death and alive me craving your name into my wrist and left a scar few inches deep and the blood just dripping from my bed to the floor and the sound of pills going through my mouth There wasn’t a single thing I wouldn’t have done for you you just had to name it and if it was about to pick or choose you had to name it I put my life on the table like a Deck of cards but yet made it out alive but were we’re you afterwards I had choosen to push you away because I thought it was best for both of us and you gave up easy on me I thought you were gonna ride for me But if we were ever to talk again just know I’m not that girl you used to know that was the one who was scared and fragile you kill that side of me esta merta Pejo the sound of Paramedics and my family talking on if I was on drugs and shit and know one knew what had happened that night but you and I new the true and at the end I took the blame