it's a long way back... yeah. its a glimpse in the past, a memory that is just as bad. A memory that hides, inside my darkest mind. Did you ever tought about leaving this place. Leaving like the leafs when autumn's progressing lately. The cool of the wind blows hardly on my chin and I hesitate to keep moving, a toxic childhood mainly. I simply wish for a sign a moment like a meteor in the sky, or the second star on the right haha! Peter Pan is a lame fairytale! It seems I'm waiting and waiting for nothing in the end I'm fading. And now the rain is pouring or is it the tears that reveal about my pain, my shame of own being. I'm pissed about everything, I'm creep. It's cold outside, I'm losing all pride, it's all dead inside, don't ask why. I'm pissed about everything, I don't know why I'd rather be alone for awhile. it's a glimpse in the past, for you to understand the reason behind my struggles with life. The fear, the hate, the screams, the threats. This sad reality, created this melanchloic story. Whatever it took me to be happy was all what a child would had want from his family. This glimpse in the past, is all about what I am for now. I close my eyes and say to this youg lad inside, you did well to stay alive.