i roll a white paper just something to hold me this paranoia, anxiety the fucking depression it’s getting to me to much i can’t handle the tention i keep on smoking and smoking thinking to my self all the bad shit is going and going but these hoes keep laughing and baffling on like somets funny when there the ones gonna be in a ditch with no life or no money tell em i said that i’m better than them bitches there gonna get what’s coming when there in hospital getting all them stitches at the end of the day we’re only just young youtes that’s why i need to forgive you but your making it harder getting other people involved and it’s spinning out of control i meat this boy never catches feelings like dis before but now he’s making me think stuff which is hard to ignore but these bitches keep getting in the way of that driving me fucking insane when i’m tryna get my head down in the right path in my own lane i just keep on praying to god that i will hopefully find some light i will never give up without a fight yes life gets tough but i ain’t one of them kids that feels sorry for them selfs even though i have flashbacks of when i was that kid in the cells the past is the past can these bitches just let it be so i can move on and just be me i can’t cope anymore with this generation i’m just trying to focus on myself and my education my best mate got stabbed and was left for dead over some mad petty complication we all lost him and i know he ain’t coming back but i wish we could rewind time and just go back if i could i swear i would probably have an argument with god i know you got your reasons but i’m in my feelings that i don’t p Mero lost his life before he was even a man, moved to manny since the age of five now i’m growing up and seeing all the youtes carrying knives. Being in care was hard but i had to try and move on even though i can’t be unscarred but i just have to make my own way and maybe one day i can leave the past behind me and move on and be a better women and make my mum proud and get used to the society i’m around. But i give my mum all the love for being there as what she went through loosing me was unfair. now i’m one of seven siblings but i’m scared for them to grow up with all these killings but i promise i will protect them in every way and one day when i pass away they will realise i tried to be the person i am today. i guess i’ve took advantage of the love ones i’ve had and when i think it’s actually sad but now times ticking and the world is spinning i think we need to sit down and realise life’s to short so we need to grab the people we need for the right support