Gimme one more drug As I try to hide One more drop of blood It never satisfies Hand me the plug As I start to cry What yall call fun was my suicide... Suicide Suicide I got one more in me, I know I do. This pain tore my skin, deep. I hold it through all through this core, frenzied by this war, to lose. So much pain wellin' where ya can't fucking see it. Demons dwellin and they won't relent. So many reasons, this treason, I believed in so much assuredly. Like the purity of love, to cure me g. Believing a cursed being could have the freedom of her to me. But I lost her deservedly and she saw the worst in me. Now I'm living a life, with pain seeming bottomless. And my thoughts are ominous. Problem is when you found love and you got that bliss just to end up, all these broken promises. So yeah I'm full of suicidal ideation. Cause I had my life just waiting and I yelled and told God to take a hibernation and fell to the lies of Satan. I'm waiting to die, catch 5, I'm prayin. Shaken by my PTSD, see me just be taken, but that's how I want it. I don't deserve peace, I deserve to be hunted. I was foolish and I mistreated love. 100 fucking bullets in my gullet wouldn't even be enough. I'm fucked up and beaten up. Weak and cut and shut myself off from joy and forgiveness. A life I destroyed and I got to live with it. And maybe she healed but I can't let it go. Toss me in the void, a pathetic soul. There's a special chamber for those who damage others. I fought to save her but couldn't handle love, cursed. And I don't hate her, I still love her. Guess I'm a evil motherfucker, stuck in Satan's kingdom. With no freedom. Who wanna be believing that I'm a king and but the truth is I'm a demon and I ain't ever leaving. I love to think I'mso strong but hold on cuz my soul's gone. Nothing to prolong, it's true I died. And this song ain't even my life, it's a page from the past book of my road of suicide.