Total life if i win or lose if u neva made it, man know i never made it, stuck in irregular life. this is the new normal, but ain't my total life i fathom what it means to celebrate Christmas in the street, always wanted a home, perhaps a family of my own no more phone calls i think am on my own strategy deep,as i Jeep out, peep in to picture better day but it seems so far away. every day i pray then i get lonely wanting company, but here in this solo physical looks invisible that's okay i have to carry on, one man military, reading scriptures as i burn down weed so reality tatoo on my heart tablet. my memories flies and tomorrow is just a story i have heard men lie decieved by mortal sanctuaries for every penny school years wasted, street tears erased, so every time i step on the stage, its refugees on my mind, cause i cannot erase these gsss i passed by the streets. hard times out here, who can help if i don't work today? only God knows if i don't beg today, in this life it's all a bet if i win or lose today(ain't my total life) As i live this mortal life(ain't my total life if i die in this worldly life(aint my total life i ain't eating biscuits any more, memories of childhood fantasy, as i point my finger towards my future to prophecy, never knowing challenges of life would help me erase all lies Now deep down to my root,truth heals my bones,but aftermath left me rejected by my whole family Now all i 've got here are road signs, traffic jams and go slo still am solo let the Lord walk with me, and ask me you believe i can save you, so stay with me, all i see is horror hear dogs bark, over the years bittersweet memories makes me shake my head it's still me here to carry on, i 've got a dream to ride so baby rise, burie my story behind my chest for next generations to come, tomorrow is a stranger, one shot and a brother falls asleep till Jesus comes