Save me from me if only you could see. You prevent the abnormalities within from wriggling clawing and struggling to get out and lash out at everyone and everything till the eerie silence fills my ringing ears contorted by my darkest fears made ten fold as they are made reality at my own hands. By definition im the cause of my own demise. May as well be like the rest of you holistically. Humanity one of the few things i grabbed when i ran. Shouldda always had the box to my soul And my heart wouldntve gotten shredded so much as the end result. I wouldnt smoke so much if it didnt hurt as equally. Just another shot or ten and maybe i can finally go to bed. How many images have been burned into my head. This one takes the cake as i slip away into the murky red lake surrounded by snakes no way else i can take it we make our own hell my name is blake but who is better its too hard to tell if i can be the boy you knew and fell in love with so long ago. Or will i be the demon everyone claimed me to be the only thing they claimed to see when they look at me. Satan spawn i guess thats me. But If you wont save me... I guess im lost in my darkness and been alone trapped inside of my fucking dome. I see the world for what it is and prison is just the same damn end. Solitude and suffering my only two friends. At least i know what they are but people on the other hand.... I know what i know and you are a peice of shit not the stone too stubborn to break when stepped upon or thrown. The friend i thought i knew when he hid a slew of blades and thought i never knew. Told me all of the truth. Shouldda recorded that shit i know. Dont tell me i should have known. A pathalogical liar at heart i didnt want to see the truth of him. My brother by bond dead and gone from my heart. Its so deep dark and hallow. If i was its what i would be. Poltergeist demanding blood and life for what was done and acting like my soul aint that strong. Is a death wish to begin with. A Cold undead youth i turned into when i discovered and came into contact with the cold hard truth. Now i wish i never ever even bothered to call him brother. I wish i wouldda left her to her own devices and forsaken my friend as soon as i suspected the shit. His forbidden fruits knows no limits. And now i understand. Even in the end im seen as the demon cause he went and lied to everyone she and i called friend. Wonder why i cant trust anyone again. People all have motives and mine just might be to remove your fucking head. But instead i said I guess im lost in my darkness and been alone trapped inside of my fucking dome. I see the world for what it is and prison is just the same damn end. Solitude and suffering my only two friends. At least i know what they are but people on the other hand. I know what they are, but people on the other hand I've never been able to comprehend how you could forget to twist the blade after pushing it into my heart. It hurt yes but you never finish anything you start. I wouldve rather cut off your head than to leave you there struggling. I've always been stronger than you but i knew you didnt know the pain that you gifted me you cant take it back when you are attacked my brain dont leave out shit so i'll take another hit take another swig let fly another swing right up in your face. I'm so full of hate i cant see another way. Peaceful ways of keeping it are buried in the past. If i knew peace it was only in another lifetime and i've forsaken my own ass. Never selfish as i should have been. Now its a bit too much to hurt this bad by not being able to care if im bad when i hurt someone when im mad with rage. Been trapped in a cage entirely made of hate born from hate towards me and needing to protect myself from the fire with fire. Fighting all of those damned liars and so called friendly people never demanding shit. Playing the game of peoples choices whose gonna take the rewards? Maybe the man with a knife rack in his back. But like i said; I guess im lost in my darkness and been alone trapped inside of my fucking dome. I see the world for what it is and prison is just the same damn end. Solitude and suffering my only two friends. At least i know what they are but people on the other hand. I said I know what they are, but people on the other hand