I'm a egotistical maniac the pain pulsing in my head and back the doctor layed me down on the mat fire spiting pill twitching in the mri I sat then it started laying there unguarded I closed my eyes radiation touch my sides couldn't hear a thing then a flash and a ring went into a coma alone in the black aroma want to have you there but you didn't ever care told her I understand all my feelings were canned when she rejected my hand this heart dried up into sand i feel im not alone all the guys they disown I have a hole that can't be filled a hole the last one drilled if you can't go deeper dont try you'll always keep asking why ava come fill in your hole put back my heart you stole u led me astray now your walking away I thought I had someone now picking up the gun going to take the gummy s going to act real funny i just want to know 8m why you running out the door Is this what I really wanted in my head these girls haunted wrote this half dead no insecurities i said she not scared of dieing she just scared of trying flying plane of the surface so I can find my purpose I need to be needed then im sure I succeeded blinding lights when I awake skin color turned opaque can't feel the back of my head mri blew up and I bled from 9:30 till 6:00 my phone is on lock sit and become more humiliated I'm so hated a mess I have created I wish wasn't always this jaded ava I can read you like a book you have no need for me because you know I'm hooked other guy probably treat you like a race but I know now you want someone to chase no more instant response I'll be busy writing songs you activated hard to get when you cut your net no hard feelings my words have lots of meanings blinding lights loss of sight ava good night