Don't know how to cope with this pain I'm sitting going insane I'm crying in the rain Park the car on the tracks prying for a train Im sad y can't u see Did u ever care about me Family asks how I am I scream let me be Hanging from a tree Form this pain I want to be free When I lost u I lost my world Now I'm always bored Y won't u help me lord U said I will keep u safe from pain Should have stayed in my own Lane Grab the knife drain the blood from my veins The demon is getting hard to tame Death seems better then my own fame Want to end my own life and ill do it with my knife U said I will keep u safe from pain Should have stayed in my own Lane Grab the knife drain the blood from my veins The demon is getting hard to tame Death seems better then my own fame Want to end my own life and ill Do it with my knife I don't want to say goodbye But I wonder why In my bed in a ball now I cry Y do u lie Y do I cry The only thing I ask now Is y Just want to is to take 100cc of dope Let my ass OD The love I have for u I want to be free Fuck let me sleep in my own casket Getting close to my end and u best believe it Wanted to cumint couple BnE Take 100 cc Form my fucked up life I just want to be deceased Can u took the break up another way at least Now I'm in a confessional talking to a priest U drug me through the mud No one to turn to but hard drugs This depression Is a Infection Just like the constant rejection This is my fate Going to hell cuz I am no saint It's good u don't relate Ma walked in as I pole the trigger she was to late Every word I say comes from the heart Shouldn't have trusted u from the start The love I had for u Is tearing me apart I live with this depression This is a lesson When god lade u on me thought it was a blessin Sry family that I have u stressin Got played like a fool Used like a tool When u where done with me put me in the belt Did u ever care how I felt Call me a pice of shit Hell if the shoe fit Just want to fade away OD on the floor I lay I need a hero to save my day Y won't u help me god I pry My demons I can't sly Can't hear a word u say I was another option on ur survey Left me for dead can't hear a word u said Pump my body full of lead Is it treason If I in my body there is poison To stay alive I'm running out of reasons Damn ur really leavin I'ma start listening to my demon This is the realist thing iv wrote Got the knife to my throat We could have worked out maybe if we meat at a different time I cry with every rhyme Smoke another dime There r ups and downs I just want to drown I can't even remember when my day was bright But I'm the toxic one right Ur always looking for a fight One two three four Ur just another whore Walk right out the door Dead inside My life is a roller coaster ride Now u switching to a different side Said u would be my bride Now my emotions r fried U always lied My emotions r shattered every other word is a broken promise