too many times I pick you over my life now I pay the price, heard you sharpening your knife, If it's for you id give my life always take that sacrifice with you I'm in paradise, I'm in paradise your love for me is a druggg I can never get enough, going through life without you its hurting enough, I feel these drugs are doing surgery they put me to sleep like a nursery but tell me are they hurtin me but still the pain from you is cutting deep, sometimes it gets hard to breath with every step I take your shadows chasing me, when will I have that weight off me whys is there so much hate on me why cant no one have faith in me, why is there no saving me, is that what yall think of me, I waited for my turn patiently and why am I still Iosing, my best friends sleeping with my ex, what the fuck am I doing fighting against life but its so deep rooting how could you do this, I lost both of the people I thought would stick right through it but I gotta keep moving, im sick of losing, being bruised and always being last chosen so I take all my bottled emotions causing a commotion, I take that bottle and throw it right in the ocean I guess I'm always falsely hoping, that you'll finally look my way and notice, but it's hard finding something to cope with, when you go an leave me broken I guess all a guy can do is just keep on hoping, you'll fall into his arms one more time like the ground underneath your feet is eroding